its surprising how events take on a life of their own (he said oxymoronically) just really how i came to pack the fags in (sorry American readers) - that took a year of getting on and getting off NRT, then how I stopped drinking alcohol (evangelically of course) to losing some of my 20 stones and having to face the zenith or the nadir of eating HEALTHILY and (fuck me) - exercising! Hey! I'm a rat - our kind come to their own this 2008, hoping for the best but watchful for storm clouds like a vulture on a branch. I said i was getting re born, 'cept I mean humanistically. I see that a lot of good people have got various death wishes among them, mine's a beaut just don't need no god-shit to cure it! I am beginning to discover an answer but it won't help you to know any way I'd probably insult your intelligence.

Z.